Lotus Unfolding

This has been a really intense Sun in Scorpio season. It kicked off on October 23, with Mercury, Venus retrograde, and Mars also in Scorpio; it ends on November 22, just a few days after Venus finally turns direct. [...] We sometimes forget that Scorpio's traditional planetary ruler is Mars; it's a fighting sign, and for several weeks, nearly everything has felt like a dramatic struggle. [...] But as we move toward the Full Moon in Taurus, with Venus direct at last, maybe the tide is slowly beginning to turn in the direction of calm and sanity. – Source http://www.mooncircles.com/fullmoon_april.html

I’ve been catching up on a little reading; not much really, my mana’o still feels way too unfocused to get most information to stick. But the above section of an article on night’s full moon made me stop and think about my last entry and the frustration I’ve been feeling.

Last Thursday night I had hit a pretty deep low with everything. I was thinking that the job is going nowhere, and I have no inspiration to make it work either. I just wanted to crawl into bed and stay there forever. Michael forced me out the door and off to Qi Gong, which was a godsend. Three weeks of not being able to go had really dulled the memory of how great it is, and how much it helps me ground, focus, and feel better in general.