Lotus Unfolding

My fear of failure and blockages to success come from a long line of family disappointments and hard, hard lessons.

This came up after a local metaphysical / new age healing store came up for sale. Kumu and I decided to investigate whether this is something that we could do, as we have seen ourselves having a store together and doing the work in this way. We didn’t see it this soon but it did raise some interesting thoughts and feelings in both of us.

I realised that I’d hit this point of self-sabotage when I was sitting in bed, bawling, talking to Michael about it, because I’d interpreted his “thinking” look as “doubt, fear, failure, hell no!”

Then I realised after talking to him that he’s fully supportive if I want to jump into buying the business and running it. So what I was seeing was all the fears that jump to the surface when I’m faced with change in this way. I automatically feel I’m not going to succeed.