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donnalotusSo yesterday I decided I'm just done with the whole MIL thing. She's been instructed that no communication is to occur with me until she learns to settle.the.fuck.down. All communication will go through Michael now if she wants something, to avoid any "she said, he said" nonsense where she takes what I say and compares it to what he says, and then because we don't use exactly the same words (even though we're saying the same thing) she says we need to get our stories straight and we don't communication with each other about our plans.
We met with the mortgage broker last night, all going well there, but we're going to have to deal with MIL dear about that, because she wants to be on the title, she has to be on the mortgage, even if she's not paying it. This was a major bone of contention for her the other night, because she's convinced herself that we're going to just renege on the mortgage, not pay it, and leave her in debt, or something equally as insulting. But, she also won't agree to not being on the mortgage either (something which annoyed me because it now disqualifies me from the first home buyers grant).
After the broker left, we chatted a bit with Grandma who has determined she is definitely moving to Lakes with us all now, and will be speaking to a real estate agent shortly about putting her house on the market. I can't tell you how happy I am that she's doing this, it will be so good for her and Mum to be in Lakes, and she will love having the family around her. She and Michael were not indulging my anti-MIL attitude at all, which was annoying because I'm wanting to wallow in that for a bit, but I assured them I will get over it, it's probably just going to take a few months at this point.
I probably should do some ho'oponopono but right now, I'm just a bit too pissed off (which is exactly why I should do it).
I cooked chicken kiev with mashed potato, cabbage and carrots last night. Yum! I love putting mashed potato under a kiev, cutting it open and letting the garlic butter mix in with the potato. The cabbage was good, but it made me want to throw up, something in it wasn't very agreeable with me - I thought it was maybe iron, but it's probably more like potassium or Vitamin A perhaps. I also drank a lot of chamomile tea with vanilla and honey, that is sooooo good for calming down the body, I've been so highly strung, and this really helped me to settle down and relax a bit.
I popped one of my favourite movies Scared Stiff (1953) with Dean Martin and Jerry Lewis in the video player (really have to get this on DVD before I ruin the VHS) and watched that. It makes me laugh so hard, it was one of our favourite shows as kids growing up. I'm feeling like I want to watch all my musicals, so I just might do that. I might watch White Christmas tonight, I'm feeling a bit like some Danny Kaye.
Musicals satisfy so much for me, the costumes are always gorgeous, it's usually a lovely world portrayed and takes me back to "simpler times" when I sometimes I wish I could just live (except that women didn't really get a good run of things and men tended to be chauvinistic pigs so that kind of ruins that), there is comedy that is clean and amusing and makes me laugh, and the singing is fun - I like to sing along sometimes (when no one is listening) and I think I haven't really been doing enough singing lately since my radio in the car broke.
I'm feeling a bit better, I actually laughed last night, which has been rare in me since last week. I told The Boss today that we're moving to Lakes, haven't told him about the baby yet. We were talking this morning a bit, he's had a falling out with the Big Boss because he's actually proposed to the CEO that the training unit sits in the wrong area and needs to be moved, and that we haven't received the support needed in order to survive. It's all true, but of course the Big Boss doesn't like the CEO knowing that he fails as a manager.
It's looking at the moment like the unit may move to under our Business Manager (whom I'm not keen on, but don't care anymore) and that I will keep an Admin role, which I'm happy with because I didn't really want to step into a Coordinator role now anyway due to the fact that more often than not you end up the scapegoat for the Big Boss's failings. The Boss thinks I will likely keep my current salary which is nice, and if I'm just doing Admin that takes a lot of pressure off me to have to produce results in the way of getting income. I told The Boss that I want to leave the end of June if possible.
I have to keep up the good feelings, because that's when things flow. If I continue to slip into the madness that is the world of MIL then I will start to focus only on that, and on the negative, and that's all I'm going to be creating in my life. As soon as took time out last night to make me feel good then things started to be much better. I'm pleased. We're taking Grandma out for dinner tonight as a belated birthday present, no idea where we're going yet, but I'm looking forward to it wherever we end up.
All is right in my world.
We met with the mortgage broker last night, all going well there, but we're going to have to deal with MIL dear about that, because she wants to be on the title, she has to be on the mortgage, even if she's not paying it. This was a major bone of contention for her the other night, because she's convinced herself that we're going to just renege on the mortgage, not pay it, and leave her in debt, or something equally as insulting. But, she also won't agree to not being on the mortgage either (something which annoyed me because it now disqualifies me from the first home buyers grant).
After the broker left, we chatted a bit with Grandma who has determined she is definitely moving to Lakes with us all now, and will be speaking to a real estate agent shortly about putting her house on the market. I can't tell you how happy I am that she's doing this, it will be so good for her and Mum to be in Lakes, and she will love having the family around her. She and Michael were not indulging my anti-MIL attitude at all, which was annoying because I'm wanting to wallow in that for a bit, but I assured them I will get over it, it's probably just going to take a few months at this point.
I probably should do some ho'oponopono but right now, I'm just a bit too pissed off (which is exactly why I should do it).
I cooked chicken kiev with mashed potato, cabbage and carrots last night. Yum! I love putting mashed potato under a kiev, cutting it open and letting the garlic butter mix in with the potato. The cabbage was good, but it made me want to throw up, something in it wasn't very agreeable with me - I thought it was maybe iron, but it's probably more like potassium or Vitamin A perhaps. I also drank a lot of chamomile tea with vanilla and honey, that is sooooo good for calming down the body, I've been so highly strung, and this really helped me to settle down and relax a bit.
I popped one of my favourite movies Scared Stiff (1953) with Dean Martin and Jerry Lewis in the video player (really have to get this on DVD before I ruin the VHS) and watched that. It makes me laugh so hard, it was one of our favourite shows as kids growing up. I'm feeling like I want to watch all my musicals, so I just might do that. I might watch White Christmas tonight, I'm feeling a bit like some Danny Kaye.
Musicals satisfy so much for me, the costumes are always gorgeous, it's usually a lovely world portrayed and takes me back to "simpler times" when I sometimes I wish I could just live (except that women didn't really get a good run of things and men tended to be chauvinistic pigs so that kind of ruins that), there is comedy that is clean and amusing and makes me laugh, and the singing is fun - I like to sing along sometimes (when no one is listening) and I think I haven't really been doing enough singing lately since my radio in the car broke.
I'm feeling a bit better, I actually laughed last night, which has been rare in me since last week. I told The Boss today that we're moving to Lakes, haven't told him about the baby yet. We were talking this morning a bit, he's had a falling out with the Big Boss because he's actually proposed to the CEO that the training unit sits in the wrong area and needs to be moved, and that we haven't received the support needed in order to survive. It's all true, but of course the Big Boss doesn't like the CEO knowing that he fails as a manager.
It's looking at the moment like the unit may move to under our Business Manager (whom I'm not keen on, but don't care anymore) and that I will keep an Admin role, which I'm happy with because I didn't really want to step into a Coordinator role now anyway due to the fact that more often than not you end up the scapegoat for the Big Boss's failings. The Boss thinks I will likely keep my current salary which is nice, and if I'm just doing Admin that takes a lot of pressure off me to have to produce results in the way of getting income. I told The Boss that I want to leave the end of June if possible.
I have to keep up the good feelings, because that's when things flow. If I continue to slip into the madness that is the world of MIL then I will start to focus only on that, and on the negative, and that's all I'm going to be creating in my life. As soon as took time out last night to make me feel good then things started to be much better. I'm pleased. We're taking Grandma out for dinner tonight as a belated birthday present, no idea where we're going yet, but I'm looking forward to it wherever we end up.
All is right in my world.
